huhu I miss you, pom-pom.

I kinda miss Friendster, so I filled this 'bulbo' up :p

1. Last beverage? teh botol
2. Last phone call? acha
3. Last text message? sorry...masih jaman sms? bbm kali (azek azek)
4. Last song you listened to? Wonderwall by Oasis
5. Last time you cried? few hours ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice? yes
7. Been cheated on? no
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? never.
9. Lost someone special? few times..
10. Been depressed? YES.
11. Been drunk? never

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. pink
13. purple
14. pink...again, I guess?

THIS PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends ? yep
16. Fallen out of love ? uh-uh
17. Laughed until you cried ? yessss
18. Met someone who changed you? yes
19. Found out who your true friends were? pretty much yes!
20. Found out someone was talking about you? YEAH.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? i kissed my girlfriends on the cheek, but not my guy friends!!!

TRUTH:
23. How many kids do you want to have? 3 kids please
24. Do you have any pets? yes i used to have a dog but he died a year ago :(
25. Do you want to change your name? no, why would I? i think personally my name's kinda funny :p
26. What did you do for your last birthday? karaoke!
27. What time did you wake up today? 8:00 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? seeing my friends
30. Last time you saw your father? minutes ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? I'm not gonna tell.... hahaha
32. What are you listening to right now? the sound of the television
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? no, but I've seen him on tv with Jerry! Tom and Jerry, right? hahaha stop it, its not funny.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now? tomorrow.
36. Whats your real name? Siti Savira Ivonne Ralie Siregar (kinda funny, right? told ya!)
37. Relationship Status? single. and may I add, and ready to mingle. so, it goes like this 'single and ready to mingle' :p
39. Male or female? female
40. Elementary? azka for 3 years and then moved to avicenna
41. Middle School? 19 junior high schol
42. High school? sma 6 jakarta
43. Hair color? black
44. Long or short? loooong
45. Height? 168cm
46. Do you have a crush on someone? right now? no, I think. no one seems to be that attractive to me these days :/
47. What do you like about yourself? I can feel someone's pain, for real.
48. Piercings? no
49. Tattoos? don't have any but planning to have one on my hips hahahaha
50. Righty or lefty? righty

FIRSTS :
51. First surgery? waktu masih kecil lupa umur brp, kaki robek abis naik sepeda...ii
52. First piercing? pas masih balita kayanya yaa
53. First tattoo? dulu waktu kecil sok2an pake tatto di bali, logo surfer girl gt ii kampung
54. First best friend? pasha
55. First sport you joined? basketball
56. First pet? fishes... and they died in a similar story: i didn't feed them quite nicely so they ended up eating each other.
57. First vacation? Paris kalo gak salah
59. First crush? rere. hahahaha cant believe i still remember his face, he looked a bit like a godzilla. but a cute one!

RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating? nope, im starving to be honest :s
62. Drinking? yep
63. I'm about to? take off this contact lens i am wearing right now
64. Listening to? you keep asking this same question, why??????
65. Waiting for? this tuesday :-)

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids? A DEFINITE YES. haha
67. Want to get married? of course. cant wait malah hahahaha
68. Careers in mind? a good mom and also a lovely wife.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX OF YOUR CHOOSING?
69. Lips or eyes? eyes
70. Hugs or kisses? both!!
71. Shorter or taller? taller
72. Older or Younger? both. haha
73. Romantic or spontaneous ? I'd prefer spontaneous.. but romantic is a good quality in a guy, too.
74. Nice stomach or nice arms? nice stomach
75. Tattoos or piercings? BOTH!!!!!!!! both both both
76. Sensitive or loud? both.
77. Hook-up or relationship? relationship
78. Trouble maker or hesitant? trouble maker is a challenge :p

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger? no. eww.
80. Drank hard liquor? no
81. Lost glasses/contacts? iya hhhhhh so many times.
82. Sex on first date? no. EWW.
83. Broken someone's heart? no but hopefully never hehehehe
84. Had your own heart broken? ....yes :(
85. Been arrested? no
86. Turned someone down? yes hahaha sorry.
87. Cried when someone died? yes
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? umm...i dont know. hahaha AS IF! no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself? sometimes.
90. Miracles? yes.
91. Love at first sight? not so much.
92. Heaven? yes
93. Santa Claus? no
94. Kissing on the first date? no
95. Angels? yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? yes hehehehe
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? no, never, no
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? yes cause honestly, im a faithful girl myself.
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? God.
100. Who is the most awesome kid ever? me when I was still a kid. hahahaha.

emo

bete nih, bosen, gatau mau ngapain, laper, kesel, bete, kangen, gak mood, pengen pipis, gatel, begah, pengen tidur, males copot soft lens, pegel, sakit perut, lagi dapet, sedih, males senyum, bete... eh td udah ya bete?? ya pokoknya intinya itu yg lg gue rasain sekarang. huhuhu bad combination banget ya :( how can a little person like me handle that so much emotions and feelings all at the same time? almost impossible, i feel like dying right now to carry such a lot of suffering feelings in my mind, my heart, and now i feel like they're standing on my shoulder.
lebay ya? tapi kenyataan. kayanya gak ada yang mau ngerti. pathetic, much?
hahahaha udah ah ng-emo nya, surem sendiri bacanya. ii
btw, today wasnt a good day for me. lot of stuff, bad stuff, happened.. and it wasnt a good thing, for sure. but i handled it quite well, i guess. i didnt break down or cry like i usually do after hearing bad things or experiencing a bad thing. i kept my face straight and kept smiling, laughing. pretended that im okay. no worries sih udah biasa kaya gitu. (ah tuhkan emo lagiiii).
udah ah ngantuk, maaf ya gapenting. si Mr. Badmood dateng lagi nih. bye.

good afternoon bloggy :) or should i say good night? cause im not so sure whether it's afteenoon or night because its 7:00 right now. well, i think im gonna go with 'good afternoon on the way night' haha it isnt funny, is it? ya i know -_-
anyways, how's your day?
my day was... kinda so-so. started out bad. i failed on doing well with my exams. it was my fault actually, i didnt study anything the night before. i chose watching tv instead of studying. what can i do??? i mean, im just a normal human being who dont like studying. that's all. im a smart person actually. haha i bet you dont believe me when i said that im smart. thanks a lot.
i feel kinda bored. dont you feel the same? i still have exams comin up tomorrow but the subjects are way too easy (sok). there are english, pkn, and cinematography. i can finish them with a blink of an eye! hahahaha. nope, just kidding. i am smart but not that smart. okay, im not smart at all. happy?
gosh, i am eating kinder bueno chocolates right now and damn it tastes like heaven. no seriously!! try it and you'll be addicted to it. ooo-kay i feel like an advertisement blog saying it, promotion-ing kinder bueno.
well, i gotta go. must learn some things for tomorrow's exam. wish me luck! God Bless. xoxo

abc

halo semua :) uda lama banget ya gue gak ngepost, gak lama jugasih... tp lumayan lama. kangen gak? pastinyooo mumumu

gue lg gak ada cerita yg WOW nih. semenjak eng ing eng, kehidupan gue berubah jadi datar-datar aja. ngerti maksudnya eng ing eng gak? gak yah? cari di kamus pasti ada, carinya di kamus bahasa sansekerta. cari ya!

gue kemaren ke pim gitu terus jalan-jalan deh......krik. superdupervery krik. kayanya monoton banget ya hidup gue? bangun tidur, ke sekolah, pulang, kadang main dulu sih kemana gitu, terus pulang ke rumah, nonton tv, makan, main komputer, tidur terus bangun lagi, bangun tidur tidur lagi bangon tedor tedor lage unyuuu mbah surip
kaya gitugitu aja. sedatar ini ________________- ada naiknya deng dikit tuh soalnya...... HIHIHI KASITAU GAK YAAAA. gak ah bodo amat weeek :p

duh sumpah buntu banget nih gatau mau nulis apa. sebenernya gue ngepost gini cuma mau say hi aja biar pada gak lupa wehehehe ntardeh kalo gueb ada cerita, gue pasti cerita2. PROMISE!!!!!

breaking hearts

HELLO. what's up bloggy? whatcha guys been up to? come, come, share it with me!
btw, I just made an account on a social website called 'formspring'. well, I don't quite understand how to use it (but I'm learning how!), it's basically like twitter. you get followers and you follow people, too. you can ask question(s), like pretty much everything, to the people you're following and they can also ask you back. I'm not really interested, I'm still a twitter-freak. hohohoho.
anyways. guys, i wanna talk to you about 'break-up'. what do you guys really think about it? for me, personally, everytime i hear the word 'break up' it remind me of tears, goodbyes and painful feeling. i've been there sooo many times. dump someone, being dumped, got someone hang me up: been there, done that. i've been going trough so many pain when it comes to breaking up. but I always remember what many people said: "if you're ready to be with someone, then you must be ready to lose them one day' and that is very VERY true. i hate breakups, i hate goodbyes, i never liked crying and to feel the tears run down my face. not my favorite.
i'm a love-to-be-in-love kinda girl so i fall in love easily and quick. and when i fall in love, i fall hard. i would literally do anything to make that person happy, whatever it takes. not because im trying to look good or whatsoever, that's just the way i am. i've dated great guys, even though some of them oftenly made me cry but all of them had a very nice personality that's why i fell in love with them!
i hate break up so much. the moment when you know its coming to an end and there's nothing you can do but to accept it. you cannot change the fact that the fire is turning cold. the sparks are flying away and the flames are turning into dust. and you look into the eyes of your lover, they give you that 'let-me-go' look while saying 'it's not you, it's just me...' and you just know from that moment on, they don't wanna be with you anymore. BEEN THERE!
or maybe when you're hanging out with your lover and kinda realize that you don't feel that much fun with them anymore. when they hold your hand and say 'i love you' and you feel... nothing. the saddest part is when you have to be honest with them about your feelings for them that has changed, try to make them understand that you guys are better off separated. BEEN THERE!
or when they all of the sudden just stop talking to you. they give you the cold shoulder. they turn into a careless heartless person. they don't care that you cry every single night cause you can't stop thinking about them. everytime you ask them 'do you still wanna be with me?' they give you the same answer 'whatever'. that simple answer stabs real deep right trough into your heart. you still love them but they keep pushing you away when all you're trying to do is to be the best for them. they treat you bad, but you keep loving them with all of your heart and saying 'no, he just don't know what he's doing. he's not like that, i know him' to yourself when you know it's useless waiting for them but you keep running from the truth and staying with them, let them huts you cause it's the only way to say that they're yours. BEEN THERE!
see, my friend once said that in every break up, the one who leaves and being left, both feel the same pain and the same feeling: losing. maybe one day you'll realize the person that you're breaking up with is actually the one who really gets you. who really loves you and accept you for who you are. or maybe the one you're staying with right now is the jerk you have to dump cause he's getting in your way to find that mr. right guy who's been waiting for you. well, who knows?

a letter.

If I had no more time, no more time left to be here, would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for? If I couldn't feel your touch and no longer were you with me, I'd be wishing you were here to be everything that I'd be looking for. I don't wanna forget the present is a gift and I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed.
So every time you hold me, hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me, kiss me like you'll never see me again
Every time you touch me, touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you'll love me, love me like you'll never see me again
How many really know what love is? millions never will
Do you know until you lose it. that it's everything that we are looking for. when I wake up in the morning, you're beside me.

So, promise that you'll love me, love me like you'll never see me again.